26/11/23 ☆ new layout oh em geee

i was originally planning to do another page for durango buut, with this and thaat...i got the idea to make my diary page some type of blank canvas ? for me to put cool and funny stuff i like.

it's like, super duper simple rn, but that's the plan! as of now it has lola, nesquik the indie fashion icon, krystal from f(x) being silly and a cuute otter! because iloveottersandithinkyoushouldlovethemtoo!

the song i kind got it not realising it was a alternate version of sometimes from britney but? it kind of really fits?? so there it is. the messy room of viter! love it, hate it. it's cool for me :D

19/11/23 ☆ life is beautiful! we got jams to spare! ...but why is it so hot?!?!?

i got some pretty strong feelings on me these days, i don't even know why, or how...it just happened with a blink of an eye. and some tinder conversation, too, but that's a story i want to bury on the grounds of Hell. thank you.

also got some looks on this week that me as a child would be very proud of, so i'm just pointing this out for slayage reminders idk!

got pretty crazy on studying this past weeks or so, that's maybe why durango is so empty rn...

WHY.IS.IT.SO.HOT.?.

my house is like a frying pan right now, everywhere is so hot and humid and not comfortable to breathe at. all. it's crazy.

fuck the gorvenment of the united states, btw. they know what they are doing. free palestine, too. fuck zionism.

support palestinian artists! the next music log is going to be about that! please let's support them and donate to the cause.

this was just a short post to say that i am going back to update durango a bit more frequently, and that with the climate state rn, i might dissapear often...but we'll heal, and surely, one day, everyone will be free.

03/11/23 ☆ thoughts on my future and some music i listened to alot this month

this month came with a lot of surprises, initially i thought it would be just the same draining daily life of every other day but..it was different!

i discovered the reasons and real story behind my trauma, overcame it nd i think this is most ready for real life i've ever been. now, i want to move from my parents house (but still live with their financial help...sad) and have something for me, without my past enprisioning me from it.

my famly doesn't think i can make it, as i am neurodivergent with a need of extra help to live functionally...and i get it, it will be tough work to deal with all of it alone, in another place, without much ppl to aid, but i want this with every fiber of my body, and only i, me and myself seem to get it??

on another topic already... i discovered a passion on the t.i career path!

with my adventures discovering how to code, what is css and html, etc,, i found that i really like making this? i obviously am not the best at it, but the fun and drive to learn i'm getting from this on the past year really made me think. i am even searching unis to get something in the computer science major!

my biggest drive on it is learning how codes work, the line of thinking behind them and their construction as a whole! it's super cool and my pretention is working with lang to create one myself on the far future!

it will not be easy, with all that i know rn it can be tricky to enter this type of stuff, but afterall, what are these youtube lessons if not to better yourself as an begginer and senior on the industry? i need to try!!

an artist i really liked this month was Janis Ian, her songs have so much baggage and love, oh the love,,, gets you to some funny places, no? and this singer knows how to deliver the journey we have with all the love we contain so, so well..

thinking of love, she has some beautiful stuff about it, her teenage years and the longing of everything she could've ever had. it could be some type of sad story from our outside view, but here it just gives you the insight on how it is to be her, the hardship to be a woman with such dense feelings on every single thing she lived through.. i simply am loving her discography! the first ones i listened were these: Stars and Between The Lines. i really need to get through her history though... it must be so interesting, just by her lyrics i can guess it is.